Posted on May 2nd, 2009
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Mitsu
Very much. I'm a Pisces and I'm pretty identical to the astrological descriptions. I love water and living near it, my head is up in the clouds a lot, and I lean more towards the artistic side. My boyfriend is a Virgo, and from what I've read about our compatability, it matches pretty well. It's the same deal with my Chinese zodiac sign, the Rat. I just wish that "wealthy" trait would kick in soon, hehe. But I think that, because I was born right in the middle of the Pisces time span, I have many traits of a Pisces; when I hear of other people born on the cusp between signs, I wonder what that would be like. I'm grateful that I was at least born on solid Pisces ground, since I feel like I'm a "halfie" person genetically & culturally (my mom is from Ireland and my dad from Japan). It feels good to read my astrology and know I actually belong to some kind of group.
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Posted on May 11th, 2009
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Play video games
Porn
Watch movies
Study languages (that i like)
Dance
These are the things I could do for hours and not realize it. I don't see any obvious profession that i should be doing which involves the majority of these things. A dancing, multi-lingual porn star that plays erotic video games?
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Posted on May 18th, 2009
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I'd like to surrender a lot of things. My fear of the future, my insecurities of money and finances, my tendancies to beat up on myself.
Sometimes I get scared about focusing on the negatives in life and what i'd like to get rid of, as I hear from books like The Secret and other resources, that it's best to focus on things you WANT, rather than what you DON'T want. Which, I think is true to a certain extent, because then you focus on the positive things in your life, rather than the negatives and all that depress you. But there needs to be balance- I think when I'm brimming with things that I want to surrender, I should speak on them and give voice to them, so I know what I'm dealing with.
Surrender fear, insecurity, hatred- I wish to surrender all things that hinder growth and my path to the things I want. Although it's interesting to note that sometimes these seemingly "negative" things can indirectly lead you to the things you want, and spiritual awakening and growth.
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Posted on May 20th, 2009
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That's an interesting question which I've never thought about. I think I'm so used to the fact that, even when I'm doing something I LOVE doing, like playing video games or...wow, I can't think of anything else that i would love to do all day...I suppose read interesting literature or write. Anyways, EVEN IF I were doing that for a job, I think I would still view it as laborous, forced "work". Isn't that terrible? I DO want to have a job in which I do things I LOVE and ENJOY. But I think first, I need to get rid of this notion that work in general is forced and not fun. Work is fun, work is money, and work is INCREDIBLE when I'm doing something I love! There. Some affirmations/declarations for me! :-)
Having worked in retail most of my youth, I just associate work with repetitive labor. I created my own fun when I could, but i think after a while I just got so tired of doing anything in the retail field. That's why I'm so glad I work in an office setting now- it's a nice change of pace. But soon I will be working in a job which I LOVE that allows/has me travel lots.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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i usually go to my mom and sister for help. They are really good listeners and know me really well. I also turn to chanting (I'm an SGI Buddhist) and that seems to help, although I wish I did it more often, even when I don't need help. Because I mean really- isn't it always great to have help in life?
I'll turn to my friends for help too, and they are really great.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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i suppose i took a major risk by getting my present job, because it pays so low. But I didn't really view it as a risk; does that count? Sometimes I feel like, if I don't have fear when I'm making a decision, then it's not a risk. That can't be true. I quess I just have fears when making CERTAIN decisions and choices. But yeah, so I took a big risk taking this job, but I love the change of pace and the flexibility they offer.
I took a big risk last year when I went on student exchange to Chile, with no income during that 6 months. That was crazy.
I think that, when money and loneliness is involved, I get nervous and scared about making a decision, and that decision turns into a "risk". Maybe that's what separates a decision/choice from a risk- the fear. Well, fear and how high the stakes are. But with certain things, i don't really care how high the stakes are. Well, i guess money is the biggest thing that raises stakes, huh? That, and the lose of family or friends.
I took a risk taking a hiatus from my boyfriend while I was off in Chile and abroad.
It's interesting to noe how we categorize "risk" versus just an easy decision.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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When I went to public high school for one year in my sophmore year. Before then I had been going to a smaller, newer school and had been craving a larger school with more class options. But when I went to the larger public school, I went through a significant change. Until that year, I had always been really jittery and hyper and just in everyone's face trying to get a laugh out of them; when I went to public school, people shut me down and told me how annoying I was. I realized, without my usual possee in the smaller schools, that the world can be a harsh place and that yes, I needed to calm down a lot. I switched back to the smaller school after that one year, but I transformed so much and I can't imagine what kind of person i would've been without going through that. I came out much calmer and grounded, with a red slap of reality on my face.
The first few years after graduating high school were also times of great growth for me, as I think it is for lots of people. High school is like a bubble, and once you get of that sheltered existence and out into the real world, you grow up pretty fast (well, if you're on your own and not under your parents' financial umbrella).
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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Gosh, that's a good question. I think spending quality time with my family and friends. Improving someone's life in a big way.
Learning a valuable skill.
Obtaining lots of money.
I should really ponder this question more, as it's extremely important to what kind of job I get, and the lifestyle I lead.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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I want to be a strong, confident, financially and spiritually abundant person.
I want to be rich in all aspects of life, with strong connections to my family and relatives around the world.
I want to be someone fighting injustice and paving a path for others to follow in and become inspired by my actions and life.
I want to be someone known by many as a kind, compassionate, passionate and loving person who is close with his family, who lives life in the moment all the time, and who knows how to get what he wants.
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Posted on May 21st, 2009
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Well, I try to reject that negative voice from my youth that tells me I'm just stupid and that's as far as I can learn/grow. But I've learned that if you deny or reject something internal, it just tends to get bigger and more potent. So, i talk to that voice and other draining thoughts/emotions with love and acceptance, and that seems to help. But i still get frustrated with old habitual voices poking me, and that's when I lose it, hehe.
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Posted on May 29th, 2009
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At home, where I can be myself and let loose and not worry about people watching me. I can walk around in my underwear, look disheveled, or sit and read with no distractions.
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Posted on May 29th, 2009
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A job! I have one now, but I want to get a better-paying job for the Fall. I want to scour the web and local business for the perfect job for me- one that affords me to travel lots, gives me flexible hours, has a great work environment, and is conveniently located. I WILL FIND IT!!!
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Posted on May 29th, 2009
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I think I depend on others to mirror myself back to me. Usually I find out more about myself from people telling me so. But when mirror me and actually point it out, I can grasp it faster, then just me figuring it out over time. Interesting concept. I've never really thought about using people as a mirror; i'm not even sure how to go about doing that. I mean, the best examples I have are when I have an epiphanies of my behaviours and thought patterns from my current relationship. With my friendships, however, they are great mirrors.
I'm going to start looking for this mirroring effect in people now, see what I find....
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Posted on May 29th, 2009
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Again, a very pliable word- "authority". I imagine most Christians, Muslims and Jews say they give authority to God, but I'm just speculating and definitely not judging. For me, the only real authority in my life is ME and my family and loved ones.
Physically speaking, i give authority to police, fire men/women, those types of social figures, unless they are being unreasonable and complete assholes. i think people in regular positions of authority tend to let it go to their heads.
Authority = control, does it not? Or, a very powerful/significant person or figure that sways decisions and pathes of one's life. In that regards, I would hope we each are our own authorities, with mother nature and our communities as other authority figures.
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Posted on May 31st, 2009
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I would like to accept pretty much all positive abundance- money, love, emotional & spiritual support. I would also like to accept that which I cannot change, and my own limitations (although I am changing in my mind what I THINK are my limitations).
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