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November 2009 
Something to sleep to
Posted on Sep 20th, 2008
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Mitsu
Mitsu
Lately i haven't been wanting to fall asleep without a movie playing by my side, or in the backgroud. I think it has something to do with the fact that I don't want to fall asleep alone. I'll play one or two favorite movies like, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", or "Vanilla Sky"- something dreamy and with a flair of nostalgia. Why is that? I'm so afraid of laying in bed in the dark, with no comforting voice by my side. I'm afraid to turn off all the distractions and just be alone.
Today I researched the art of freelance writing, and my head feels like it just read over the Bible and the Koran put together. I try to look at all these facts, advice, and terms from the profession as helpful information that i can soak up like a sponge. But lately I've just been so tired, so zapped of energy. And I'm getting tired of writing about that. I want to find a solution to my tired-ness (is that even a word?). What am i eating or doing that's causing this?
Today I researched the art of freelance writing, and my head feels like it just read over the Bible and the Koran put together. I try to look at all these facts, advice, and terms from the profession as helpful information that i can soak up like a sponge. But lately I've just been so tired, so zapped of energy. And I'm getting tired of writing about that. I want to find a solution to my tired-ness (is that even a word?). What am i eating or doing that's causing this?
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I don't really know what you're doing that's causing this, maybe it's just a will of the spirits, that all this is happening in your life. Maybe all this is happening, all this bad stuff is happening to you and eventually everything will be great, or right again. You'll feel more creative, more grateful for life, the clouds will clear and the sun will shine. I think the darkest periods of life are there to help us be better people.
Those two movies, are love movies at the least and also, because you said you don't want to be alone, I think you need to find someone to share love with, someone really good for you
I think you should get out, go talk to people, be more social and get some good exercise, nothing like a good cool breeze and some fresh air to get you going. Excercise increases dopamine levels in your body, which causes you to reach euphoria, so just get out there and get some excercise. You'll also feel alot better about yourself and how you look, making you happier with yourself.
Being happy with yourself is the key to being happy in life.
I hope this helps, and feel free to write back :)